- started the day off late. Again.
- am currently cleaning the room (much overdue). This is my first task of the day.
- not sure where i will go afterward. I could go out to do work, but that means i should shower. This is a problem because 1) i'll need another hour and a half before i can feel clean/presentable enough to head out, and 2) showering this afternoon will throw off my shower schedule. I am surprised/disappointed in myself for #2 being a valid concern, but it is.
- realize that i seem to have a particularly high occurrence of interpersonal issues as compared to most people - arguments, misunderstandings, fall outs - involving everyone from romantic partners, friends, to family members... all at once. On bad days this makes me feel like a complete freak. On good days, i spend most of my energy trying to convince myself otherwise. But none of the days have i yet been able to figure out what's going on and/or what the hell is wrong with me.
Anyway, that last one made it on this pseudo to-do list because that takes up a lot of my time and energy tending to. In fact, it consumes most of what i've got the majority of the time and takes away from the other things i need to get done too. Then i start stressing and freaking out about everything feeling like an avalanche, and i just shut my eyes and ball myself up into a corner again.